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Tuesday, November 17th, 2009
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a friend of mines birthday party
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Monday, February 16th, 2009
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i did that nude photo shoot for jeff, and i'm excited but nervous to see the print. he been shooting handfuls of students for the last few weeks and they're all fucking great, it for his senior seminar/ exhibit, and the theme is just being nude and having a good time being nude, nothing serious, just fun and goofy. I wore nothing but my red firestone racing baseball cap and he played girl talk during the shoot which was good choice, also i'm getting intro crystal castles a lot,i dunno matt turned me onto them. i finished my squid sculpture for 3d and i'm ok wiht it, and then i did my chili pepper sculpture hah,who knew cardboard was so fun and easier to manipulate than i thought. i'm excited ti get into plaster this week. i spent valentines with george and we went to blicks, he bought me wood carving tools for my relief printing class, and then i treated him to lunch at red robin. its not crazy romantic but i'm perfectly happy with how the day turned out. i talked with him more about us and i think its getting through his head now that i wont wait around forever and hes the one i'm interested in. i have to do fafsa tomorrow morning. we're reading cruddy in english and i really like it. we just finished reading sylvia plath poems from ariel. "sylvia with her head in the oven like a baked potato" haha. Wait i shouldn't laugh at that its wicked depressing that she killed herself like that. but also that line is just fuckin comical. nights at school st. have been fun but i think i may take a break from going as often, i dont know how they can drink and smoke everynight. ahah but hey whatever works for them man. kyle on the other hands need to get his shit togethr, jersey nawww fuck ittt.
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Monday, February 2nd, 2009
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not to remember:
piet mondrian
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Thursday, January 15th, 2009
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Wednesday, January 14th, 2009
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so i started to watch repo, cause after seeing it on alex page i was interested. i have gotten too far cause i was too tired that night to watch a movie but i plan on watching the rest tonight.
I'm glade for this 6 week winter break. It gave me a chance to see the people i care for most, as well as meet many new ones. Danuta I will say this now, you are the one of the select few that I have shared most everything with in my personal life and all other aspects. You're always down to do something wether its pointless or absolutly perfect. I love sharing every minute with you that i can :)
and to people like Jenna and Kiana that have managed to keep solid relationships with me over he past year, i really value their friendship. and my chelsea who i'll love forever alongside leah with her sexy vacuuming.
and catching up with people like salina, mairead, alex, stef, sully, and even kevin made this vacation one worth my while. I miss living in springfield 24/7. I don't give a shit who says oh , get the fuck out of there... honestly to where? where else will i find this comfort? My life was never shity enough to the point where I said fuck this place I"m out. Never. and people may thinks thier lives are shitty but they're fucking retarded. No your lives are fine. Yes there are fucking miserable moments but there is always next week to move on and fix whats not working. any who. I'm feeling better than the other day, kev and i hvaent talked since so thast better for me, I dont want another downfall. Then theres the george thing that just pisses me of so for now until he takes the initiative its on the back burner. i will focus on sewing my tops and dresses for the show.
oh and notoriuos comes out friday and i guess i will be seeing it with dave. and its not a date, but I won't be spending a dime.nice :)
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Sunday, January 11th, 2009
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3 hours of nothing meant basically everything to me.i'm sorry you feel stuck. and i sorry were both still into one another. despite my efforts to hate you for what you did I'm a sucker for it all. Your charm is something I've missed in my life for a long time. and i've spent a whole semester thinking things would get better between my other hope and I. but it only got worse. and i needed a friend to be there and there you were.but if only it could've been more. what if you never went back? I know you felt obligated, and i knew you felt like shit, I could see it in your face.I dont think i could stand for you to break my heart a second time.
"I was really into you, if you didnt notice. and i just went back, and i dont know why, and now i'm stuck in this shitty juno scenario, except a lot more depressing, like not getting any sleep, worrying about whats gonna happen, type of depressing."
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Wednesday, January 7th, 2009
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thexstabbing: (1:39:29 AM) but hey im out girl ill hit u up tomorrow im suuuuper tireddddd niight :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-*
and that is why I i am so fickle when it comes to waiting around for this boy.
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Saturday, December 27th, 2008
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I just had the most mentally satisfying conversation with dave carter. awkward but nice and its people like Dave that make me jealous that I can't just speak my mind and tell people straight up what I think of them. Hes so blunt...maybe cause he smoke a blunt every 4 hours but still. Sometimes I wish I had no second thoght about what came out of my mouth. No regrets.maybe one day.
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Sunday, November 30th, 2008
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uuuuuuuuugh, whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywywhywhywhwhywhywhywhywhy,fuck crying.
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Tuesday, October 21st, 2008
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i couldnt keep my eyes clear tonight, i couldnt hold it back it everything combined, i can't do this. i broke down, and wet for a bike ride. it felt good buth that quickly went away and i fell back into that slump.
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Saturday, September 13th, 2008
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me dan and Bad-water went to city side for our 1 am breakfast and met robyns mom and sister and it turns out robyns mom was the super hot crazy sculpture chick who had us build a dinosaur in the sculpture garden the first day of orientation. she dropped 40 bucks for breakfast and ran out laughing at us and making us feel like shit that she was such a wonderful lady. lucky for kellie though she got a HUGE ASS tip. tomorrow my mom comes up :)
going to shop for a few art supplies and goin into boston to get my glasses from ari and go to this paper store my teacher told me about that is dirt cheap and i can get big sheets for my prints. I like that we have visitng artists every weekI met Karen gilardi who had worked with fred flare and is a real intersting artist and also worked on the RHCP album art work alon with other bigger bands which is cool and I met mark hoffman today who is this awesome illustrator who worked on the Home Movies cartoon which is awesome. Were starting up KIVA at montserrat and we'll be the first college to do so which is cool and a very cool way to recycle.
i like nights where we all go out and just lay in the middle of the road. the other night we were running past the electric speed limit monitor and tried to see how fast we could go, dan got the highest, 17, i got 12 but as a group we got 20. me and rob were doing backbends in the middle of the lane when this car was coming and didnt move to test how far they would come to us,needless to say were perfectly fine. then we played red light green light down essex street all the way down near the salem border and cars were stopping behind us cause well duh if we had a red light they had a red light but there was only like 3 cars total cause it was 3 am. Tomorrow theres another football game so if i'm back here by that time then i'll head over. talked with emily on the phone today which was awesome i have t skype with noodles cause i miss her :(
g'night<3
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Friday, September 12th, 2008
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I feel more and more confident everyday that this is for me. I'm where I want to be. I have a good feeling about this group of friends. And what I love is that we arent selfish, i feel like these friends(aside from about 3 or 4 back home) are really for keeping, they're hearts are in the right place we hvae maye things in common ad I'm not tlaking music or clothing, i'm talking about things like, we all have good loving relationships with our mothers and love spending time with them an treating them like the queens they are or living in the moment and wating to have kids one day,i dunno real life things that matter. Theres no sketchy agendas just straight forward conversation and.. oh well i'll finish this later, i'm going to watcha movies at dans, oh and i played football for the second time today...so much fun. then pizza at the bear gallery opening
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Saturday, September 6th, 2008
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quick summary..i'll try.
since i got here I haven't gotten back to my house till 3 or later every night. I fuckin love that. I've been hangin out at Dans house most of the time. Lisa is great, met her bf whos very nice, lisa is like a micheal cera ish type, undertoned humor. i love it. clasess not gonna lie kinda boring cept drawing and intro to print media. OMG, I love print media. ugggggh. we jsut washed out our on silkscreens but i'm buing my own soon i like that better to ahve my own. and we're geting our templates ready to print. Len is the greatest teacher. I played a pool ternament the other night with matt my house mate and then went to the secret beach with dan and lisa, you see shooting stars every fucking night. We went to michelles diner twice so far, both times at 1 am, and there fuckin ridiculously drunk funny people, cheap yummy food and oh i love that i can walk barefoot around the town and not worry about getting glas in my feet, we actually went to the secret beach again tonight, robin and greg stole a boat and took it out to this yatcht and went onto the yatch haha, robin is fuckin amazing, she bikes,snowboards,is fuckin beautiful and funny. it started to pour and we all ran around robin went into the ocean with her jeans on hah, on the way back we took trash cans and lined them up in the middle of the roads, took street signs, and played red light green light with the traffic lights. a few nights ago we mad peanut m&m marshmellow and banana panakes, so amazing, my english class is really awesome too, the teacher just makes us write but about anything we want. and i've never felt so free to write what I wanna write about. I' met alot in interesting people. Went to this throw-down tonight and dan played an acoustic set with an acoustic version of wyclef and akon's sweetes girl, i love this kid.this whole night we ran down the street singing the green street hooligans pretty bubbles song, omg and now after watching robin climb the construction sight rafters i'm so doing that one nght with dan, were wearing shorts a treckin up it. this kids make me feel(not to sounds stupid but) alive. I've never felt like I could do anything. We sat in the middle of the road for the longest time ,no cars, the town is quiet but i actually love it. it was weird at first but at the same time liberating. I'm just really happy.
Ahahah oh god we mad a set of rules for dans house and one of the is that at 3:55 to 4 we have to sport finger mustaches, and anyone who doesn't do it or their finger falls from there face has to be pants-less for 15 minutes. this started because greg brought home a cardboard box for a pretty pastel kitchen with a clock on it thats read 3:55 and one night i drew a mustache on my finger, oh the cardboard was for thie cardboard couch we built for dans house cause they had no couch, its awesome its now broken in wiht butt grooves.hah.i've bonded wiht sam toomey and her roomate is the sweetest looking girl named sydney wise. There a lot of drama t the school wich is a lil annoying but thankfully the poepl I ahng out wiht arent involved with it. dan played me this song kellie and ruthy wrote for him called titties r' us... it is the funniest shit i ever heard. the first line is" so i heard you were blind, so i came inside your eyes" and its set to a nice acoustic guitar, love it ahah its so gross and violent and you wouldnt think girls wrote the song but oh they did, ahah. I dunno what else has happened but all I know i that great things happen everyday.
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Tuesday, August 19th, 2008
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this is so far the best from the photo shoot. and very happy with it. but i dont know it i should do some more cropping
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Sunday, August 17th, 2008
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... i really wanna talk to talk to someone right now What my dad said tonight really scared me. I wanted to ask him why? Why would you ask me that? IS there something wrong? I had a feeling the whole sleeping in different beds was more than just about snoring. And i feel like such a littl ebitch cause all i could do was try not to cry in front of him. Would it affect me? yes.god damn fuckin yes it affects me. thanks for the wonderful emotional rollercoatser setting the tone for this lovely week.
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Saturday, August 16th, 2008
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NY film academy.I would have to work my ass of for a year to gather enough for tuition cause anything after 4 years of college is 100% on me. No help. So lets try to shoot for that uh 34 hundred? great. I have 6 days left. Hopefully I'll go to fat cats tomorrow and say goodbye to a lot of people. Well see. I also have to clean the office tomorrow. Ar'is leave tomorrow and I know my parents will be sad. I fell bad at times for leaving them. I'm excited for monday cause I will see knuckle tattoo boy. And right now Hes the source of happiness and I don't give a shit. I know its not gonna turn into anything cause how could it ya know? but at least I've got someone to think about at night for a while. Six days are you fuckin kidding me.Ya know what sucks the most though.. it definitely coming to that time of the month so I'm bitchy and emotional. and what better week to be that way then this week. Which means I'll be extra fuckin blubbery when I say by to my mom and ugh. i'm gonna go watch a movie.
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Friday, August 15th, 2008
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the closer i get to school the more scared I become anxious, worried, i might throw up. And every passing day I become more attached to the idea of film school after these 4 years. Now I can't picture my life without it. I think I will go for it.Whatever I have to do and if that means loans up my asshole, so be it. I want what I want and fil school is definatly what I want.
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to lay on my bed and do absolutely nothing but talk to you has been one of the best things of my summer. How often do I come across someone who wouldn't take advantage of that situation. I love feeling that nervous feeling where you get all tingly and your heart beat races. I love meeting someone new someone that give me that feeling. Even if nothing becomes of this I still leave happy. Nothing to lose everything to gain.
Dinner made me so sad I came so close to crying but that night I had never laughed so hard. everyone looked so nice too. that was a good night.
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Wednesday, August 13th, 2008
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youre the goofiest sounding person, but its a good thing. and your knuckle tattoo is the single most sexy thing about you.and you smell amazing. good timing shit head.now what.
i don't think i've ever said sexy seriously before...its..akward
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Tuesday, August 5th, 2008
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uugggh why now when i leave:)
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